Wednesday, December 30, 2009

A New year

So with 2010 two days away, people are going into resolution mode. Thinking up what they are gonna do and telling other people about it ahead of time. Changing their attitudes, appearances, men/women in their lives, jobs, clothing style etc. Then they look to me and ask me what will I do. Simple answer is the same as last year, I don't do resolutions. Any changes that I need to make I won't wait until the first of the year to make.

I am however looking forward to 2010. Like I said in another post, 09 wasn't really that great of a year for me. In addition, I've recently been kicking people out of my circle for various reasons so I'm looking forward to the new people I meet in the new year. Of course as up and down as 09 was, I wouldn't change the majority of it. I like for life to be interesting and full of surprises as opposed to redundant. My plan has been to visit somewhere new every year so I gotta find a few places to go next year. 08 was Vegas and Orlands, 09 was Miami, so I need something different for 2010 (of course this doesn't include trips to places I've been before). So far I'm thinking about the Poconos and Manhatten (yes I've never been to times square, sue me) or maybe that trip to Beverly Hills to hob nob with the snobs lol. So I can add those to my trip every 4 years to Dallas.

Either way, hopefully this year is interesting and memorable just as the last few have been.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

one year anniversary

I didn't want to mention it in my last post but today is the one year anniversary of the day my heart was crushed for the second time in my life. The day my ex miscarried. I don't know what it is but it's weird that I grew so attached so quick. The majority of the guys I know that have experienced a miscarriage all got over it, so to speak, relatively quick. I on the other hand am still thinking of what would/could have been. He wouldn't be a year old yet but he would already be crawling. Is it strange that I think about that stuff?

I've randomly thought about it during the year, thought about what trips I wouldn't have taken. See toys on tv and in stores and think "I would have gotten that for him". I've been told that I'm not that emotional of a person and yet I'm feeling choked up as I type this. Maybe it's how I have been the last few years. Maybe it's because I've felt alone for quite some time that makes me feel this attached to a face I've never seen. I know I've had friends and family around me for the longest time but something about being an only child with one deceased parent and another that didn't give a damn about me makes me feel this way. The lack of "immediate" family is what puts me in this dark place. A place full of feelings I have to hide from those around me. I really wanted to be able to have that sense of closeness with someone that was almost fully my blood in connection but it wasn't meant to be.

I know that there are people I consider brothers and sisters, others that consider me a child of theirs but it just isn't the same. For all the smiles, jokes, and playfulness I present to the world, there's still just an emptiness on the inside that I can't shake and can't seem to get away from no matter how hard I try.

I know Tyler is in arms of his grandmother right now so I guess I shouldn't be too sad. I would have loved to have seen the expression on her face when she first saw her first grandchild though. I wonder how bad she would have spoiled him. I've wondered how much he would have cried at night, how many times a day I would have had to change his diaper in a day, when would he have started crawling etc. I guess my time of joy has not yet arrived but it's ok, I'll appreciate it that much more when it does.

R.I.P. to everyone that meant something to someone else and is no longer here.


I can honestly say I'm happy for 2009 to end. To much has happened in the last 12 months and a lot of it has been negative. The world around me has been interesting to say the least. I've been in a car accident, been without a car for five months, had one serious as breakup, been used, felt completely lonely, been flat broke, and been sued. Some of these are long stories that I haven't disclosed but man has this year sucked. To be fair though, I've found new connections with people emotionally, and a few new relatives so there has been some good. I just can't wait for the new year to begin.

I'm going to have to start the year with a decision (see last post) but it's not that bad of a thing. It's potentially a win-win situation (with the only potential loss being down the road) so that's nothing to complain about.

I'm thankful for the family and friends I do have though. Those that were there for me in my down moments, especially the ones that I never thought would be there for me. Stronger bond has been formed so I can add that to the positives list. I'm also thankful of the e-friends I've made that have given insight and advice on certain situations (if you've commented on any of my posts then I'm talking about you lol) . I hope everyone had a better 2009 than me lol and that you all have a great 2010.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

torn......but not really

Have you ever been in a situation where you are caught between two options that both could potentially be a good decision? Well I'm not in that situation exactly. I'm caught between two situations that both would be a good situation for me, only problem is I want to be in one specifically. The thing is, the one I want isn't an actual option for me, it's just outside that realm of possibility and no matter how much I tell myself that it is still possible, deep down I know it's not. Now my other option would also be a good path for me to walk down but it's not the option I would choose first.

The path I want to walk down has a wall at the end of it. I can see it from here but I can't tell from looking just how long it would take to get to that wall, but I know it's there. The other path has no ending as of now. It's an ongoing road that I would probably walk down happily if I had never looked left and seen the path with the road block. Don't get me wrong, I really want to walk down that path anyway and just enjoy it until I get to the end, but it hurts me to know that there will be an end.

So I'm not really torn, I'm just caught standing between the road I want and the one that makes more sense. For right now I walk in the middle. Both paths start off going in the same direction so for now I just walk straight. But when they turn in different directions, I honestly hope that road block is gone. If not, I'm taking the road with no ending, but probably still thinking about what was on the other side of that road block.

Damn this post is weird, even to me lol

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I'm back

ok so I said all this before but I think I'm going to try and keep up with the blog better than I was previously. Honestly I'll probably fail since I have way to much drama and potential drama going on but whateva, I'll give it an honest try. I'll update as events occur. :)

Friday, July 17, 2009

Free at last, free at last..........

*screams to the heavens and back* I'M FREEEEEEEEEE

Ok, I haven't been on here in awhile because I was dealing with an issue that I wasn't trying to escape the proper way. I let myself be pulled back and forth by my ex emotionally and it was really weighing in on my psyche for far to long. Man, love will really fuck you up but at some point you just gotta break free. She was honestly a lot in my little world because I allowed her to be, problem was I became less and less in hers and was to blind to see it. She is the mother of my unborn child (catharsis volume 1) and the main inspiration to another post (kindness is a weakness) but she, at one point, was also one of my best friends and favorite people to be around.

It's funny because people tend to come to me with relationship advise and apparently I give great advise but I couldn't give any to myself and when I did I didn't follow it. Everyone has a breaking point in a relationship and it's amazing what happens when you reach it. You start to really put things into perspective and you can finally follow your own advice. It's amazing to me that I can already look back and laugh at it all (it's only been a freaking week). But knowing that I know longer get upset about the stuff I've been put through by her tells me that I'm truly FREE from that emotional bind that wouldn't let me leave. We've been flipping the switch on and off for the last year and I've finally decided to just cut the power from the generator itself (bad analogy I know).

I'm FREE at last *does crip walk into stanky leg* Now hopefully I can get back into some damn blogging

Sunday, June 7, 2009

I'ma go harder than Baltimore

This post is really about nothing. I'm just showing love to someone from my city and my city with this :)

Friday, May 29, 2009

kindness is a weakness

Pure and simple. Anybody with the personality trait of being as kind as possible to others has a distinct weakness that they might not realize. People constantly say "don't mistake my kindness for a weakness" but it is. What caused you to actually have to say that statement? The fact that you realized that someone took advantage of that weakness. Yes you can change how you deal with the person afterwards, but it still happened. Your human weakness was exploited by someone you wouldn't have expected.

The interesting thing is, the people that end up taking advantage of your nice/generous/loyal/concerned/dependable nature is always someone that you wouldn't expect to do it. Of course that is as it should be, if you expect someone to take advantage of you, you would prevent it before it gets to that point. Instead, it's family, it's close friends, and it's significant others who are always the ones willing to see just how much they can benefit at you're expense. Consideration is not one of the easiest things for people to consistently have and when it comes down to you or them, they almost always pick them. You on the other hand also pick them because it's who you are as a person. The most selfless people are always the ones looking back and realizing that they shouldn't have done something

What happens when you confront someone on this usually? They either attempt to flip it in some sort of way or they apologize only to try to repeat the offense at a later time. Unfortunately, if you are the type that is usually being taken advantage of due to your overall kindness, it's not an easy trait to change. You might tell yourself it won't happen again, but lets be honest, it does. Sometimes it's by a brand new person, sometimes it's by the exact same one. Either way it's going to happen a few times, maybe a lot, before you start being more cautious as to how nice you are to certain people.

Kindness is a characteristic that most people have and it's part of being human. Problem is, it's one of the main reasons people look back and say to themselves "I was being really stupid" when thinking about a particular scenario. Unfortunately tho, it's tied to emotions. The more you care about a person, the more they can get over on you. Even when they do, you give them more and more chances because you truly love/care about them. Even when you are aware of it, you still let it happen because of who the person happens to be. I guess it's just something you have to try and be more aware of and learn from when dealing with certain people.


Thursday, May 14, 2009

Man Rules for the Ladies

The Man Rules
At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down

Finally, the guys' side of the story.
must admit, it's pretty good.)
We always hear
'the rules'
From the female side

Now here are the rules from the male side.

These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all numbered '1 '

1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down..
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports It's like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem
only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the
other one

1. You can either ask us to do something
or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did
NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not
A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it
will be scratched..
We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing,' We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1.. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball or FOOTBALL

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape.
Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight.

But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

Monday, May 11, 2009

withholding sex

To the ladies that do this......STOP IT. That shit ain't cute. In a relationship, men tend to be more physical than women. Women tend to be more emotional then men. So while you want the cuddling, cute convos, and general closeness in proximity, most men enjoy the hands on aspect of the closeness. I'm not saying we don't like the cuddling and all but lets be real here. If you're gonna withhold the sex then you are basically taking away something major from the guy and you know it.

I'm not saying you can't withhold while you're upset. That's completely normal and to be expected. Even in the time frame when your still getting over it is still an acceptable time to not get in the sheets. The thing is, once you've forgiven and moved one, there's no reason to withhold sex. It's just being petty and spiteful at that time. There's no such thing as "teaching him a lesson". All it will do is cause more tension or force some guys to start noticing other women.

Lets be serious here though, how would you like it if a guy did the same thing to you? I'm not talking sex because I know some women, some, can go without it for awhile just fine. What if after you apologized for whatever you did wrong he decided to withhold cuddling, spending time together, cute talk etc, basically the things you love in the relationship? Would it be ok for a guy to completely pull back on the emotional side of the relationship for 2 weeks or so as a way to "teach you a lesson"? From where I stand that would cause more problems than it would solve, just like you holding back on the physical to teach a guy a lesson. Seriously think about how you would feel if a guy showed you no emotion for a week or two after an issue just because he wanted to because of the argument. Now tell me you would honestly be ok with him doing that...........don't worry.........I'll wait. You can't can you? Because that's an importan part of the relationship as far as you're concerned. Then don't do the same to guys. Again, I can understand when you're upset, and when you're still getting over whatever isksue too place, but when it's done after the issue is resolved as some sort of "I'm gonna make him learn" is when it's fucked up to do.

end rant

Friday, May 8, 2009

girls are cruddy

Notice I said girls and not women, I don't think a real woman would do this.

Anyway ladies, what is with the urge to hookup with ya homegirls man/sex buddy? One thing I've noticed, and took advantage of in my younger hoe days, is that if a female tells her female buddies about how good a guy is in bed, or in some cases in general, there is bound to be one female friend that tries to experience it for herself. Envy is a hell of a sin *said like rick james*. Dating my ex for as long as I did, I've had multiple chances to mess around with some of her friends and family members because she messed around and said to much. Yes I said family members.

Her cousin and I were never cool, merely cool by association. Suddenly she has my number and is calling me to say wassup (ex called me from her cousins phone). We go over there one day to play spades, knowing I'm coming also, she's walking around in lingerie. My ex had the key so she called when we were parking to let her know we were coming in. We get in there and she comes down the stairs in white boyshorts, matching bra, and a short see through rob, hence the fact I know all colors. My ex almost beat that girl down lol, I had to actually drag her out before the fight started. He cousin continued to act like she didn't see the problem since she was "covered up".

I'm sure a few people that read this, whether male of female, that have been through this at some point. Don't get it wrong, guys do this also, just not on the level that females do. For the record, it took a lot of willpower not to succumb to her advances, chick was bad, but city isn't a cheater ;)

Edit: Blog concept credited to The Houston Girl.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


Sorry for the update delay (for those that care), I had a vacay, then came back with the bird flu, swine flu, sars, and mad cow disease so I been sick as hell. Ok, I didn't have any of those but I still been sick :)
On to the new post

I think their should be a written rule of boundaries when you and someone are "friends with benefits", so to speak. A friend of mine recently was asking me when was I gonna come around to meet her friends. This caught me off guard because I had no plans to ever meet her friends. I honestly don't care to meet them simply because I don't ever plan to be around them. To clarify a little, she and I are not friends by my definition. A friend is someone I hang out with because they are fun to be around. Someone who will be there for me in my time of need that won't constantly throw it in my face. She and I do not hang out for fun..........well we have fun but you get the point. I would not call her if I'm in a bind, ever, and we don't even really talk all that much. I don't really define her a a friend so why do I need to meet her friends?

Maybe I'm wrong on this but I assume that a relationship basically only based on sex would stay as that unless both parties choose to move it in another direction. Hell, even had she said something before hand it wouldn't have caught me so offguard. I'm thinking she is inching towards moving it a step forward but maybe doesn't know how to say it.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

is he wrong for this?

A friend of mine, we will call Chris, was telling me about an issue he had with a lady friend. Now initially I thought he was wrong in it all but then I thought about it again and I'm in the middle. So here's the scenario:

Chris has been in a relationship with "Stacy" for two year. Over the course of the last five months, Stacy has not wanted to have sex at all. She would tell him that she just wasn't feeling it and they had sex no more than once a month for the last five months. Now as a guy that is very sexual lol, I can see his problem here. I've spoken with her and her reason is that although she still loves him and wants to spend her life with him, there's something missing in the romantic spectrum of their relationship which is preventing her from wanting to have sex. Interesting thing about it all is that, she apparently gets aroused but doesn't want to sleep with him anyway. It's also came to light that she purchased a sex toy for personal use. Chris does believe that she would never actually cheat on him, but he can't fathom how the love of his life could possible be horny enough to buy a sex toy, but not want to have sex with him.

He came to a point where he was ready to end things with her because the sexual part of their relationship was frustrating and confusing him way more than it should. Like I said, I initially disagreed with him on this, thinking that he couldn't end their relationship just because of the lack of sex when almost everything else is going great. I've thought about it again though and I can see his point. Marriages and relationships have a low success rate when there is bad or no sex, it's what causes people to cheat. He's tried to talk to her about it but she doesn't seem to know what needs to be done to change her feelings. According to Chris, he's tried to do a few things differently to make her happy and has tried to be more romantic but it's all for naught. He's pretty much ready to end it.

So originally, I told him he shouldn't end it just due to lack of sex but I've since changed my mind. I think he has a good point. I don't think a relationship can survive with a bad or non-existant sex life. It's the basic fabric of a relationship, it's sexual attraction that initially brings most people together. Without sex, I don't believe a relationship can survive.........unless you're over 60.

Maybe it's just a guy thing though, so I'm wondering the women think on this?

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

funny vids

ok, I been gone for a lil while but here are some videos that I found funny as hell. I'll be back soon enough

Thursday, March 12, 2009

catharsis volume 3: quicksand of the mind

memories of 2004-2005

Definition of quicksand: A bed of loose sand mixed with water forming a soft shifting mass that yields easily to pressure and tends to engulf any object resting on its surface.
How deep can a person get before they completely freak out? If you panic, you cause yourself to sink quicker but if you do nothing you will still sink in, just at a slower rate. You need to think clearly and figure out a way to get out of the situation

Ever get that feeling that no matter what you do, things just seem to get worse? You're trying your best to get out of a bad situation but no matter what you do, you only seem to get deeper into the situation. In a time where jobs are hard to come by, you are stuck at a job u hate. Everyday you go to work u feel instant stress when you walk through the door. Supervisors imposing ridiculous deadlines that can't be met, giving you work that's not even part of your job description, and yet still complaining and yelling that things aren't done in a quick enough time frame. 5 days a week u get out of the car in a pleasant mood but it instantly goes sour as soon as you walk through the door. 8 or more hours of mental tension five days a week. You get to the point where you don't even look forward to the weekend because it leads right back to those five work days. You feel yourself sinking deeper and deeper. When do you start to panic? When do you stop and think clearly? How do you get out of the situation? You're about knee deep

Relationships add to your stress. You put you're all into someone but they don't do the same. They did to start the relationship so as of now, you are deeply in love and hoping for change. Change won't come but you don't give up. You stay positive but the other person continues to be selfish. You do everything that person wants to make them happy including things that u don't want to do. You're willing to sacrifice anything you have (time, money, etc) for them, and they see that as a reason to keep taking. Your kindness is now a weakness. You put out more love than you are receiving, things don't seem balanced. At some point you begin to question yourself because it seems that you are expecting something that won't happen. Yes you did some things in the past that u shouldn't have, as did they. But you forgave and left it in the past, they bring it up every time it's possible. Why are you still here and why is love forcing you to go through such pain? You feel yourself sinking deeper and deeper. When do you start to panic? When do you stop and think clearly? How do you get out of the situation. You're about waist deep

Friends are not what you would expect. You're a good nature person and they take advantage of that. When they need you, you drop what you are doing because you're a good friend. It doesn't matter if it's money, a ride, or just someone to talk to, you are there for them. When you need them, they are busy, tired, or just don't feel like being bothered. When you call, they don't answer unless convenient to them. They don't repay unless u harass them about it, which makes you feel like you're in the wrong. The word "friend" starts losing it's original definition in your mind because u can't seem to find someone that displays the true meaning of the word. It's just people that take and take, but aren't willing to give back. You start to think that you would be better off alone. You feel yourself sinking deeper and deeper. When do u start to panic? When do you stop and think clearly? How do you get out of the situation. You're about neck deep

Life is not what you would like it to be. You're not at a job that you like, you're in a bad relationship, and your friends are not real friends at all. You feel alone in the world. People know you and yet nobody really knows you because you don't share your true feelings. You think about what life has to offer and wonder if it's all worth it. You remember all the hardships you've endured and think to yourself that it's to much, the weight has been crushing u slowly. You think of all the good things you've experienced and realize it comes nowhere near the amount of negative things you've been through. You recall the way you felt when you came home to find that you had bee robbed, everything you owned now belonged to someone else including things that u only kept for sentimental value of your lost mother and grandfather. You reminisce about the time that you had no home to call your own and were sleeping in your car under the stars, how it was difficult to explain why u needed to take a shower at someone elses house and why u had all those clothes in your trunk and backseat. You remember the guy that shot at you and your friends because he had to prove how hard he was and the friend you watched die in front of you from a gunshot to the back of the head. You stop thinking about the rest because u realize that all this happened before you turned 21. You are convinced that the future just holds more of the same stress, struggles, and tribulations that you've been going through as far as you can remember. You can only think of one way out. You know it's the coward's way out but you don't care, it's the only thing you can think of that won't cause you any future pain, sorrow, or heart ache. You hope to see those that you've missed, you hope to finally be at peace. You grab the gun and put it to your head. You've sunk pretty deep. You've begun to panic, you're officially in over your head..............but it's not to late. There's always time to think clearly

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Society is destructive

This blog is in reference to two different conversations I've had that made me sit and think for a moment (shout out to Thunda, Jsad, Jolie and Just). This might be a long read, just so you know.

A lot of what's wrong with people in the world is a direct result of societies influence on them as a child. A lot of children have to succumb to societies representation of what they are supposed to be when they get older. For the females, it is usually instilled in them that have to be a size 4, blue eyed blond with long hair, all the newest and most fashionable clothing, and be wanted by every male possible. The problem is all women weren't meant to be a size, blue eyed 4 blond with long hair and all the newest and most fashionable clothing. This is why you see black women dying their hair blond and wearing contacts. Society is slowly stripping away people's self worth. Women of all races (for the most part) aspire to be a body size they weren't meant to be and this has led to a lot of bulimic and anorexic little girls that don't realize they are beautiful they way they are. It also has led to a lot of low self esteem.

For the males, they have a few things instilled in them early on also but on another level. As much as I like hip-hop and R&B, it's teaching boys that they must have that fancy car and pointless jewelry in order to show that they are important. The music is also teaching little boys that they have to be "gangsta" or else they are punks. It's not teaching young men to go to college and work hard to get what they want, it's teaching them to be "hustlers", slanging on the corners, and robbing. Get rich or die trying? A CD title is now becoming the way of life. I remember growing up before gangsta rap really took off, back when MC Hammer was the shit. Kids back then became friends just because they lived in the same neighborhood, on the same block. Since then, little boys have to instantly prove to other little boys that they are gangsta. When was the last time anybody has seen or been to a block party??? It doesn't happen anymore because males are too quick to prove how much of a "G" they are when the smallest thing happens.

Kids of both genders are now also pre-programmed to look for specific things in the opposite sex. People don't know themselves well enough to know what they want but they know that they want what society has taught them to want. Most women want a guy that has deep pockets so that he can take care of them. They aren't being taught that they can aspire to take care of themselves, some are but most are not. Most men want the baddest chick they can find just so they can say "I got her". Problem is they will bypass personality completely for the looks because society never told them what personality to look for. This is on top of the problems they each already have. So now you have a guy with money because he hustles in a relationship with a very attractive women with the worst possible attitude. Relationships like this are destined to fail. You then have a bitter woman saying "men ain't shit" and a bitter man saying "women ain't shit". Problem is, they both go back into the market looking for the same exact thing they just had that didn't work for them anyway. People need to learn to think for themselves and decide on what they need for themselves and ignore what society (other people, media, parents, etc) tell they need to be or want. It would make things a lot easier on everyone.

Disclaimer: I had to stop writing this and actually do work for this damn audit, then come back to it. Sorry if it doesn't flow, kinda lost my initial thought on it all :)

Friday, February 27, 2009

Fellas, really?

Why do people lie about shit that don't need to be lied about? What's the point of creating an image that you really can't live up to? It's only a matter of time before you are exposed.

I got a friend that is always talking about a new chick he slept with, but it's never within reason. It's always "I met her at the mall and fucked her in the parking lot" or "I was supposed to go out with her and then she brought her two homegirls over and we had a foursome on the first date". These are real stories told to me by someone that can actually get girls, but not on this level. I mean really, if you gonna lie about it, at least lie reasonably. The previous examples are from my boy Marcus. He is a brother who has apparently never went on a date in his life that didn't end with sex. Maybe my mind ain't right but I don't think there's anything wrong with just saying "we went out, saw a movie, kissed, and that's it". The worst part of this is that I never ask him his business, he just tells it for no reason. He's a chronic liar that don't even know when not to lie. He and I used to live together right after highschool with another female friend. He actually had the audacity to lie and say they had sex.......................yes, he lied about someone he and I both lived with like I couldn't just plain ask her about it. I blame guys that actually get a lot of sex for this. They be making him think he gotta compete.

It's not just sex related tho, niggas lie about alot. My former friend David used to talk about how gangsta he was, who he sold/bought drugs from, and who he beat up. His stories consists of him getting stabbed and being to gangsta to go to the hospital, him hitting up certain drug dealers for their stash (ala Omar from the wire) and other various acts that are beyond his testicular fortitude. His greatest story is that of a 90 man fight, that involved shots being fired, bats, people getting stomped out, and yet nobody was hit by a bullet and not one news channel felt it was news worthy. Park Heights be having some fucked up shit happen but this would have drawn a little attention from somebody. In fact, the people that lived in the area in which it all occured all developed amnesia. I blame you gangsta lovin women for this one, got this nicca trying to be something he ain't.

Maybe I just need new friends :(

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

ladies.......I'm calling you out on this

If a special day/event is coming up, why some of ya'll wait til the last minute to do your damn hair?

Ok so I'm trying to be special on valentines day and surprise my ex with tickets to tyler Perry's new play which is was showing at 3pm. I told her (we'll call her Shaniece) to be ready around 1:30 - 2:00 because I have a surprise for her and don't want to miss it. I hit her up at 2 to see where she at, and she talking about she not done with her hair. I'm thinking a couple more minutes won't be to bad, until she showing up at 3:30 and the show itself is 30 minutes away. What really got me is she asked to be surprised. How the hell you not gonna be ready when you want somebody to surprise you with something. Well the surprise was on me, I was shocked to find out I wasted money on a play that was non-refundable and couldn't be rescheduled for a later day. Them things ain't cheap

Then she asked the one thing that I hate for people to ask after they fuck up: "are you mad"? Seriously, why the hell wouldn't I be a little bothered by this? Like I felt like giving ticketmaster money as some sort of late christmas present to them? People, if you know you fucked up don't ask this question, it only makes things worse. Had it not been vday, I might have flipped, but there are certain days in the year that I don't get upset during as long as I can help it. The day wasn't overall bad outside of that.

So ladies, do you not like to get ya hair done a day ahead of time or is it just the ones I been messing with? I know some of ya'll be sleeping with ya head up so as not to mess up the new do right? fill me in on this because it's killed quite a few nights for me. It's bad enough I can't pull on it during certain activities when it's freshly done but it be messing up dates for me to dammit.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

A whole lot of stupidity in the world

Ok, I'm going to do a few short examples on stupid people.

First, a friend of mine, we will call Terrell, was telling me about this new chick he mess with now. Saying how she was model level cute, nice body, and had a great personality. I met her and she was pretty cool so I had no reason to not like her. A few weeks after they made things official he told me that she told him that she has cheated on EVERY boyfriend she's ever had. For some reason he decided to mess with her anyway saying, "I know things will be different this time". Guess how that ended.

Second, on the other end of the spectrum, I have a female friend that likes to mess with "thugs". Now, to me, there's a lot that goes with being a thug. You have to have a certain mindset, act a certain way, and be willing to do certain things. A guy can be "thorough"(wonder if I spelled that right) and not be a thug, some people need to realize this. Anyway, my friend, we will call Christina, always finds herself with a thug and that's usually the first thing she tells me when she's in a new relationship. So she calls me up the other day and says, "I got a new man, and he's a thug". I asked if he was a thug like the nigga that threw her up against the wall, the one that went off and fucked up her house, or the one that fucked her bestfriend. She told me how he was different from other thugs. He slang on the corner and has been known to cheat but things would now be different. Well, at least he only cheated on her with girls she didn't know...........oh and borrowed her car, had an ounce on him, and got pulled over thus getting her car towed which she had to pay for.

Finally, I know another guy that never has protected sex. Let's call him Marcus. He is always talking about how sex is to good raw to be using condoms. I will co-sign that raw sex is the shit, but you can't just do it with everone you meet, especially not in Baltimore. To make things worse, he's not having unprotected sex with people that are known to be "less sexually attactive", he doing it with broads that the whole block done ran up in. He's always telling us when he gets burned but "it's curable so no big deal". Last I heard he hasn't contracted H.I.V. but I hear Herpes is a mothafucka tho. At least he learned to use condoms, to bad he had to catch something that can't be cured first.

Ok, so maybe I just know some stupid ass people (duh, I'm from Baltimore) but I didn't think people could be this dumb. I probably should have titled this "Stupid ass people" but I try to be nice sometimes ;)

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Beyonce strikes again

The following is a rant by city and does not represent google blogger in any way. It contains strong language, parental discretion is advised

A DIVA IS NOT THE FEMALE VERSION OF A HUSTLER. That broad getting on my damn nerves. A hustler is a person, male or female, that is all about getting money. A person that plots many schemes, most illegal, in order to get that money. A diva is a female celebrity. The word usually has a negative connotation associated with it of the woman being arrogant, hard to work with, and high maintenance. They are not the same damn thing. And why is it a stick up? I can tolerate Beyonce for the most part and "Dangerously in Love" is my favorite song she ever sang (don't ask) but I'll be damned if she ain't fucking up the female youth of America and some hoodrats. How do you fuck up the mind of a hoodrat??? Them bitches is already on some other shit.

I saw a guy try to holla at a chick and get shut down badly because she was a "diva". All I know is, if a nicca can holla at you on the bus stop, yo ass ain't a diva. If you wearing some 20 dollar or less baby phat clothing (I just lost some fans didn't I?) then yo ass ain't a diva. If there are three or more colors between the tips of ya hair and the roots, if you work in the fast food industry, and if it Beyonce to make you THINK you a diva then yo ass ain't no damn diva.

Hustlers around the world need to get together and beat this chick with rolled up socks. Isn't Jay-z supposed to be a former hustler? Couldn't he have put her on to a dictionary or some better song writers? I know Solange ain't write that one. Again I ask, why is it a stick up? Those of you Beyonce jock riders, from now on please just listen to the song without trying to apply it to your life. If you want to do that booty bounce by all means do, but leave it at that.

Side note to the fellas, your ass cannot in any way pull Beyonce. This is a lil off topic but dammit you need to be addressed also. Tired of hearing "I wish I could meet her". Why nigga, what you gonna do besides get ya feelings hurt? Don't matter how slick you think you are, you ain't pulling Beyonce, not when she got joe camel aka H.O.V. on lock.....sorry. Stick to watching the single ladies video. (end of rant)